People make it really hard for me to trust them. They do things, say things that make me feel like I am being strung along and not taken too seriously. yet I keep thinking good things of these people, keep believing them, keep trusting.

I can't live like that any more. I can't keep putting myself through the same things over and over again.

So where do I go from here? Do I mistrust everyone? To be honest thats not me. I couldn't go around having no faith in anybody. But I can't keep trying over and over again, I can't keep offering things to people when the truth is they don't deserve it.

I won't keep trying. Its their loss and I know I am a good friend to people, willing to help, wanting to be there if people have problems. I can't keep wasting my time on people who won't reciprocate its too frustrating, its too heart breaking.

So no more. I have to stop worrying over it, I have to stop caring and I have to stop trying. Its too hard to stay that way. Its starting to get easier to be the way I want, and knowing I have other things to focus on makes it easier too.

Just a few thoughts after a few annoying and upsetting hours.