Trying to be me.....

Some of the things I think of, some of the things I do, some of the things I really want...

all makes me wonder if I am actually a bit of an exhibitionist and an attention seeker at heart!!

I can't see my blog in IE here!! I can write on it, and view it in firefox, but on my laptop in IE I can't see it, it tells me the blog page doesn't exist!! The weird thing is though, at work I have no problem seeing it at all!!

I have come to think of myself as quite contradictory recently.

The truth is, in real life I am quite a shy person, I found it very unnerving going to the blog meet last year, yet it was something I felt I had to do. I needed to do it to become me. I don't really understand why but it was something I needed to do!

I do however feel sorry for Juzzy, Molty and Nick who were, i think, the first people to talk to me. I was incredibly nervous, physically shaking and, however much I tried, I found it next to impossible to get the words to come out of my mouth Its a good thing there was wine

The thing is though, the way I dress and the words I write are someone so different to that timid, scared girl.

And that person is the one I know I truly am.... I feel the need to be adventurous. I feel like I have missed out on a lot and need to rectify it.

I know I said this all at the beginning, but I feel I need to reaffirm that.

The last blog wasn't a total loss. One thing that I didn't expect was the poetry to come out. It was never something I'd thought about before!

I am not sure if I have made any sense to anyone here but I know what I mean and that is all that really matters in the end as I'm what this is all about Hmmm how self obsessed does that sound?? Its not meant to be, its just lifes journey

I decided my last blog was getting to down in the dumps and have decided to start over

I seemed to have forgotten this blog was about my wants, desires and needs.... A discovery into myself!

I seemed to lose my way instead of find it and in the process I felt I lost myself too.

I will try and recapture what it is I lost!!

i shall be fiddling with the blog over the next few days and it may take a while until I find a design I am happy with